December 15, 2008
I often wonder why people are so happy to hear that they don’t look for their age and feel proud about being ‘young at heart’! If a 10 year old looks and behaves like a 3 year old, it can be scary and annoying right? Then why do we all like to get stuck in our ‘youth’? Is it not great to feel older, experienced and wiser with all the lessons we learn in life?
Yesterday, my friends threw surprise party and poured lots of love, gifts in the form fragrances and light, food and champagne, in a home away from home.
December 13, 2008
We are all like blind men, in the Buddhist tale, trying to understand an elephant, the reality! Each of us just try to accumulate the facts and try to rationalize and celebrate that as our victory in understanding the world. Let us not jump into conclusions with our half-knowledge about the reality! The world is neither mean nor rosy... its infinite....billions and billions of years old! Let’s explore it together! Calling it by names will make us as ignorant as these blind men in the elephant tale!
And so these men of Indostan Disputed loud and long, Each in his own opinion Exceeding stiff and strong, Though each was partly in the right, And all were in the wrong!
December 08, 2008
Today as Grant Redvers, the only person along with the captain spent the complete 507 days was describing his adventures. Once they had to even make a kilometre long runway over the frozen ice manually for their visitor’s flight it seems.
Sam, the engineer of the Tara said that just being inside the boat which is surrounded by 5 feet tall ice constantly crushing their boat and making weird sounds was pretty adventurous it seems. Wow! What a trip! I wonder what drives the scientist.... It’s definitely not the money or fame; I guess it’s the unquenchable thirst for knowledge.
End of this trip, the scientists were left with only disappointment that their trip was 200 days shorter than their plan..reason..the ice melted much faster than they expected....global warming?
Now Tara is getting ready with my boss and other collaborators for the next project this time not cutting the ice, but for a cutting edge metagenomics project!
Check out these success stories of Tara!
Ice boat details ozone collapse!
Boat sails free from icy shackles!
December 06, 2008
December 05, 2008
December 04, 2008
December 03, 2008
Here in Paris, I often heard people talking about “how mean the world is”! Compare to India, people here face ‘less’ problems, at least most of the people’s basic needs are guaranteed. Then why there is a dissatisfaction and disbelief with life? May be as a result of “Mean-world syndrome”? When people start collecting facts about the world through mass media (television and Internet) and being less social can lead to creation of a virtual reality, the mean-world! After all “reality is a less threatening place than the world of television”! Both believing the facts shown by media blindly (leading to mean-world syndrome) and disbelieving them blindly, leading the conspiracy theories and in turn result in the mean-world syndrome. So, is there an escape from the virtual reality that we create by accepting/refusing the media 'facts'? May be travelling and socializing can force us to do some reality check, and can add some confidence and optimism in our lives, after all the world is not as mean as we imagine it to be!
December 02, 2008
My writings are still not going as fast as I thought, still feeling bit more positive, after spending the weekend lighting the first advent candle in a German church with delicious German Christmas cookies and cakes ! And spending time with this little angel Nivi added lots fresh air!
November 23, 2008
I have to believe that my actions still have meaning, even if I can’t remember them.
I have to believe that when my eyes are closed, the world is still there.
Do I believe the world is still there? Is it still out there? Yeah!
We all need mirrors to remind ourselves who we are. I’m no different.
Now, where was I?"
November 04, 2008
November 03, 2008
This is the cherry on the top! Well! I may miss you lady..may be not.. I have an equally amuzzing lady in my home state Tamil Nadu! Is it a lethal combination, Women and politics? Someone please prove me wrong!
November 01, 2008
I am learning a new Statistical Computing language called R and took a resolution that until I solve my current problem using this language, I will not update my blog nor get out of my apartment! The weather was also favouring me, the work was to colour these dots according to some groups! finally I did it! I like to share the coloured plot too, but it is an unpublished data! Sorry! Blog! Need to wait to see that!
So these were some October celebrations!
- Our paper got published in Nature! It was a great team work by 30 differnt labs may be aross 10 different countries! Here it is online!
- One more paper got accepted in Nucleic Acids Research.
- Andy's visit, had a fruitful discussion about the next publications!
- Diwali and my blog’s 3rd anniversary!
3 years back, missing my friends back in India, I started this blog! Today! I have a similar lovable crowd with me! lots of colours and lights and reasons to celebrate! I will finish this anniversary entry with my childhood sweetheart’s quote “Why to fear losing in life we always win experience”!
PS: A big sorry for all those long list of unanswered mails! Hoping to be more active in the Internet this month!
October 06, 2008
October 02, 2008
September 25, 2008
September 23, 2008
RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
RULE #2 Tag 6 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.
1. What is one thing which made you feel shy/ or embarrassed of yourself?
Well! There are two things! One to keep postponing my deadlines with my manuscript, I was so embarrassed to face my boss today; finally I wrote him a mail, just sitting in the next room! Next is my recent addiction to Big Boss 2, a reality show! Oh! God! Reality shows are horrible! Let me get out of it soon!
2. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
Right Now…To finish my manuscripts and thesis without postponing it further!
3. If you could, whose butt would you like to kick?
There are quite a few! To start with people in my vicinity, two men linked with my lab one is a male chauvinist pig and the other is just a stinky pig! Well! I do kick them once in a while!
4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
Well! First, buy a house in Himalayas and then have some hobbies or some volunteer work, specially something which will allow me to deal with kids on daily basis and then travel once in a while to meet near and dear ones! And feed lot of people!
5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
NO!! I may sound bit cheesy and ‘bollywood’ type, but still… I ‘still’ believe in love at first sight! I think you will feel or see the spark in the very first encounter itself! Lovers can be friends; but friends can’t be lovers at least this is true in my past 10+ years experience and this blind faith is still keeping me single ;-)
6. Which is more blessed: loving someone or being loved by someone?
Blessed is definitely only when love it is mutual! Otherwise both (loving someone and being loved by someone) can be hell!
7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you love?
Sorry! I don’t believe in waiting business!
8. If the person you secretly like is attached, what will you do?
Wish them happy married life! Oh! Boy! I have done that enough in my life!
9. If you could root for one social cause, what would it be?
Empathy! Live in others shoes!
10. Do you lie?
Yes! Yes! I do! But like to move away from people to whom I have to lie or who lie to me! Definitely they are not close to my heart! In my life always lies have got big cracks in relationship!
11. Where do you see yourself 10 years from now?
Oh! God! I am so bad in planning! Like to take life as it comes! Just don’t want to be financially or physically dependent on anyone!
12. What’s your fear?
Right now… My laptop should not crash!
13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
Intelligent and philosophical!
14. Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor?
Single and Rich and The rest can follow!
15. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously who will you pick?
As I said before, need spark to fall in love! Where ever the spark is brighter and only when and where it is well reciprocated!
16. Would you give all in a relationship?
I don’t believe in give and take policies in relationships! It is all about sharing and caring!
17. Would you forgive and forget someone no matter how horrible a thing he has done?
I can forget and forgive provided, that someone have realized how horrible they were! Till then I will not forget to remind them how horrible they were!
18. Do you prefer being single or in a relationship?
" If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;"
- Rudyard Kipling's "If"...
Now don’t ask me which is triumph and which is a disaster! I am sure it varies from person to person! But let us just learn to accept both the impostors just the same!
19. Your all time favorite song. Only ONE. And why?
One of my favorite song is this one Kurai ondrum illai ! , a song composed by the first Indian Governors-General of India (Rajaji)! Specially I like to hear this whenever I start complaining about my life, this song sort of helps me to see the sunny side of my life, specially last few days when I was walking back home without my bike, I was singing this song to myself! In short! Telling myself that I don’t have any ‘big’ problems in life! No problems and No regrets! Makes me realize that I have enough strength to face problems in life and I can handle it!
20. I TAG these 4 people because I’m sure they’ll have more interesting answers than I did!
Swati - 'eye' express
Ashgene - inspiration
Freeda - Musings and Others
Mohor - An Indian's weblog
September 20, 2008
“I never had a slice of bread,
Particularly large and wide,
That did not fall upon the floor,
And always on the buttered side.”
September 15, 2008
Now! I am mourning with my fovourite tunes! I dedicate this song to my love that I lost today and to my all love that I have lost over past few years! I miss my bike, which was stolen today! This is for you my love!
September 12, 2008
September 11, 2008
September 09, 2008
August 27, 2008
August 22, 2008
August 15, 2008
August 14, 2008
August 10, 2008
August 08, 2008
August 06, 2008
August 04, 2008
July 30, 2008
Yesterday as we were organising a lab event, a friend’s thesis defence and farewell! I had tough time explaining this term ‘Volunteer’ to my Latin language speaking friends! I really wish this beautiful term do exist in Latin languages and hope that the small set of different ‘Latin speakers’ I met yesterday where ignorant of this word and the divine happiness this word gives. yeah! That should be the case as my online dictionary shows Etymology of this word volunteer as Latin(French). Otherwise It will be very scary to live in a Latin country, especially if there is a big unexpected disaster like Tsunami where the government may not be fully equipped to help the public and may end up depending on volunteers, after all its not good to live with an ego centric thought that my tax money that I pay the government can give all the security I need!
Yesterday I had a tough day and a peaceful night, the whole day revealed me the people I can count on!
July 22, 2008
July 21, 2008
July 20, 2008
Well! All premature obituaries will not have the same effect, especially in the incident where CNN.com mistakenly removed the password of their stored obituary pages and these obituaries where written mainly using 3 keys in the keyboard ctrl-C and crtl-V which resulted in calling Dick Cheney 'UK's favorite grandmother', Pope's 'love of racing' and Castro as 'lifeguard, athlete, movie star'.
Ok! Finally hoping that extreme conditions and difficulties I am facing in finishing my thesis will add something to my ‘growth’ and making a resolution that I will not follow my colleague’s advice to use “ctrl-C and crtl-V” to make the writing faster and easier, I am learning one more tough lesson in life!
July 17, 2008
Bollywood is still ridiculed by many here in the west but how do they know that it is the best medicine for loneliness, stress and depression! You can just switch off the brain for some time, go to a dream world, far from the bitter reality and have some stimulant for eyes and ears! Even in a depressing day, how can you resist to smile along with Amir Khan or Shahrukh Khan ! Now it is time for the next generation Khan, I saw Imran Khan’s new movie this weekend! Yes! Obviously made me feel old! But he is equally entertaining as other khans! After the big success of all the new comers, I was not able to stop myself from reading the director’s interview…I felt.. well… that is me talking! Someone had once felt the same way as I am feeling recently , but found a way out and got a big success! Here is interview with my little changes to make it suit me! So, the bottom-line is not just the bollywood movie, even their interview can put some hope back in your life! (You know it or not, you accept it or not)
Tyrewala: I went through this really productive phase where I developed three films, one of them happened to be Jaane Tu. Then came a point where I went through depression, writer's block and an intense feeling of loneliness. And I suddenly realised, 'what the hell I've been sitting in a room and typing away on a computer for 12 years. Honestly, I was going to start having conversations with the walls. I desperately needed to be out, working with people because I was losing touch with them. I was so comfortable not interacting with people because I believed human beings are a useless species. (including me) So, for me the biggest challenge was to trust people again and counting on a hundred others to do their job so I could do mine. And that is really what the whole journey of Jaane Tu was about.
NDTV: Depression, writer's block, loneliness, not being able to trust people what happened there?
Tyrewala: I've been unlucky in love. I've been in relationships (including friends and family) that didn't suit my heart, my temperament and my personality. My only way of dealing with that was having a complete breakdown. That's how my system deals with things. It happens once every 10 years year, but I'm done with it now, because I'm quite happy(???)
July 15, 2008
July 13, 2008
July 08, 2008
"உவல்ப்பத் தலைக்கூடி உள்ளப் பிரிதல்
அனைத்தே புலவர் தொழில்."
You meet with joy, with pleasant thought you part; Such is the learned scholar's wonderous art! .
July 03, 2008
July 02, 2008
June 30, 2008
June 27, 2008
In the above photo is Mr. Yamasaki painting with his left hand in canal saint-martin, taken in 1976 (photo taken from : http://www.petit-monsieur.com/gallery/index.htm)
Below are some photos from yesterday evening with my french class students and the teacher in the 'intellectual's square' (Place de la Sorbonne ).
June 25, 2008
June 23, 2008
June 22, 2008
June 20, 2008
Stewie: [holding a box] You know, Mother, life is like a box of chocolates: you never know what you're going to get. Your life, however, is more like a box of ACTIVE GRENADES! [opens the box, revealing grenades] Now I'll offer you one last chance for deliverance. Return my mind-control device...or be destroyed.
Lois(mother): Oh, you just want your toy back. Okay, here you go hun. [places his device on the grenades in the open box]
Stewie: Yes, well... Victory is mine!!
June 19, 2008
June 17, 2008
June 16, 2008
Bad part of the day! I got money from one of my best friend for doing a very silly help this weekend, Am I not evil? I tried my level best not to take it, but he literally twisted my hands in the road to put this money in my bag! My dear Alci, you are bad! but thanks for the Japanese dinner!
And the ugly, People who read my blog may know that I have great group of friends , whom I am very proud of, In the same way I am very ugly when I feel uncomfortable in a relationship and sometimes I feel I am very rude as I start taking steps away from these uncomfortable circumstances. I have lost some friends in this way and touch wood many are back with me after understanding and eliminating the conditions which made our relationship uncomfortable! Most of the time, time is the healer! I need to learn to avoid such Ugly condtions!
June 14, 2008
All this to see Kamel Hassan’s ‘Dasavatharam’ (meaning ten avatars). In Hindu mythology this refers to the ten incarnation of a Hindu deity, Vishnu and its believed that he reincarnates every time to save the world, In this movie the hero plays 10 different characters, obviously not to save the world as he even plays a role as George Bush! I went to see the movie with the curiosity how the different characters from a 12th century Hindu saint to George bush was linked in Tamil story. The link was well made, but disappointed to see so many flaws in the Kamel Hassan’s movie , the graphics was not so good, with so much of advancement in graphics, the flaw in graphics(in few scenes)gives the feeling of 80s movies. Out of 10 roles almost 7 roles were very well done, with wonderful acting and different body language, the rest three roles seems to be just a dummy with a mask, like the tall guy, George Bush and even that of the American ex-CIA. But Kamel’s acting and the comedy in the movie will make us over look all the flaws and enjoy the movie, even in the most horrible theatre.
June 11, 2008
Now I need to do two things, one to gather courage to watch ‘the happening’ and then to convince my parents for my post-doc, for them the idea of a girl living abroad struggling with very little money in the name of science sounds very strange! Well! How can I convince them that I am happier this way than sitting at home and commanding four servants to work for me in India!
June 09, 2008
June 08, 2008
June 06, 2008
June 04, 2008
June 03, 2008
In pic is Victor and Karen in their garden!
June 02, 2008
Yesterday took the European version of Rajdhani (train which connects the capital in India) express. The most luxurious night train I have ever travelled, a separate cabin, with temperate, light intensity control and wakeup call with music, bed coffee and breakfast and more over a bathroom bigger than in my Paris apartment! All this in the train from Paris to Berlin, fortunately / unfortunately I had to get down half the way in Bremen and come to this little town Bremerhaven with a very famous Institute " Alfred Wegener Institute for Polar and Marine Research” ! I will be here for a week with my work desk facing the water front! So far it is very sunny (which is very rare to see in this place it seems) and warm people!