express myself!

I wanted to express myself to my mom, to my friend, to my boss, to the people i like and the things i don't like.... in all these possible way as shown in this video.. but spent the whole day in silence.. may be I am bad in languages...may be too tired from my 15km cycling..may be things are too complicated to explain..sometimes I can express myself better in silence.. as I did today!

Run for life!

Me and my friends registered for the Cancer Research UK fundraiser 5 km run. Thanks to the good weather and the generous contribution by my mom, boss and colleagues, I was inspired to start my training today. I did 7 km training, in my favorite Grantchester route, I took it in a very slow pace. Here is the stats of day-1 training run. I hope I will get better before the final run in July. You can be generous by clicking here!Flossie Run!

Started: 5 Apr 2010 17:15:29
Run Time: 1:04:05
Distance: 7.18 km
Average: 8:55 /km
Fastest Pace:6:33 /km
Climb: 11 meters

into gardening!

Two of my friends sprained their ankles last week the same day around the same time, what a coincidence! I reacted the way exactly my mother would react, went into a short panic mode. All my life I was trying to do teach my mother, how to handle such conditions in a calm and sensible way but it is easy to preach than to practice. Both of them seems to be doing fine, got to spend sometime with one today. Rest of the day, Thanks to the good weather I did some gardening, I might have picked up that interest from my mom too..

just few months back my garden was like this.

and today...all green just waiting for my cherry tree to bloom. again differences in gardening in India vs. UK. In India the most challenging part was watering and keeping the crops away from cattle, here in UK the difficult part is to keep them away from frost. I have to tuck my seedlings inside the fleece cloth. hope that will help them from the cold nights of April.

que sera sera

French make the best movie in the world, yesterday watched The Father of My Children (Le pere de mes enfants).The movie was coming to an end me and my friends were almost into tears, but still trying figure out whats the whole movie was about, that's when this catchy song came as a finishing note. Then the whole movie and my day made lot of sense.

somethings change and others come back...

I saw few daffodils flowering in my garden and that made me to Google the Daffodils poem by William Wordsworth. I still remember reading this poem with my father as my homework during my school days and it was very difficult to understand the whole poem. It is very different from the Tamil literature and the society, which mostly talks about the powerful kings of the past or about leading a moral life. I don't remember a Tamil poem which describe the nature and how that can affect someone's life (Tamil readers please correct me if I am wrong). Also, my father had a tough time explaining the word "bliss of solitude". I used to wonder how can people be in bliss when they are alone (a condition which i never experienced in India). This word started making more sense now a days. few things that didn't make sense as child in India, started revealing its meaning now. But somethings that suffocated me as a child growing up in India like too much of unwanted attention in the name of love and kindness are still following me... Specially when I get into the conditions when I don't know how to show my love and attention to someone, that is when the things i saw learned and hated as kid started coming back to me as second nature... Last few days I lived a life that I hated the most as a kid. Now that I learned the meaning of "bliss of solitude", I think it is time to experience the bliss of solitude and let others experience that too..

For oft, when on my couch I lie
In vacant or in pensive mood,
They flash upon that inward eye
Which is the bliss of solitude;
And then my heart with pleasure fills,
And dances with the daffodils.